Trauma Lyrics

[verse 1]
growing up i never had a lot of money
i never had a phone
always was a little hungry
used to find it hard to sleep
when i could hear my mother sobbing
i was 10 back then
i didn’t have a room
had to buy used shoes
i hid behind tunes
to avoid abuse
every time i fell
i would blame it on myself
even if it was an accident

maybe it’s not what i want
oh i’ve seen better days
and the moment fucking sucks
but I’ll be damned if I don’t stop
and honestly why not
when nobody gives a

but sometimes i just can’t help myself
i wanna give up trying
and start doing something else
sometimes i just get overwhelmed
i know it’s in my mind
but i think i need some help

cuz sometimes i just can’t help myself
i was an outcast
thrown out to dry and get laughed at
too shy to talk about home
i always thought life was s’posed to be cold
and oh i’ve been so
lost without hope
i got a window in my head, it’s a casket
you know i been wishing i was dead, but i mask it

[CHORUS]

but sometimes i just can’t help myself
i wanna give up trying
and start doing something else
sometimes i just get overwhelmed
i know it’s in my mind
but i think i need some help

because it’s all i know
my hands around my throat
pray that i won’t let go
this time around
but every single time
i try to shut my eyes
i see the reason why
i’m not alone

[CHORUS]